What a weekend....

Hey All!

Boy how I have missed you guys.

 I feel like lately I have been Debbie Downer and this is just not a fun one to be around.

Well, after a much needed 4 day weekend,

I feel like my old self again!

**Quick update, a great friend has been working on our computer and it is almost up and running again. Can't wait to post lots of pics for you guys.**

So back to the weekend.

My parents bought an RV this year and we have

taken full advantage of it.

This past weekend we were able to and just enjoy some relaxing time; swimming, roasting marshmallows, and best of all....

Boogs and Hubby got to enjoy their first time fishing together.

How precious is that!

After those few days of "camping"

(not truly camping since we were in the RV)

we got to spend some time with the In-Laws and family we hadn't seen in a long time.

Boogs & Mommy got to share a special moment together,

He actually took the time to slow down and give a kiss.

What a few days of family time will do for him!

Lastly we got to spend some Amazing time with people that we love and that truly love us.

Our Church/ Pastor family.

They are our second family!

Amazing people!

Boogs got to play in water, throw some water balloons,

and then at night,

SPARKLERS!

My Hubby took this Awesome picture of Boogs.

This is how we got to celebrate the

Birth of our Wonderful Country.

How about you?

Tough Skin

I believe when people meet me, they think that I have tough skin.
That I am a feisty person and can handle a lot.
I know I get that from my momma, she is a tough one.
But just like when you get a cut or a scrape on your skin,
when it gets hit again, it breaks open that much easier.

That is me lately.
I feel like I just keep getting cut open again and again,
It hurts worse the next time,
And its like I just can't heal from that first cut.

Isn't it just like when it rains, it pours.
Well for me, when I get broken like this, it is like the gloves
come off and people just start attacking me with their claws.

Hopefully I can heal from all of this very soon.
Please understand, this is hard for me to show
this vulnerability.
I need to be tough.
I don't let anyone except my hubby see this side of me.
Sure others have seen me cry but never totally broken.

{source}

I will continue to look to the future and see brighter days.

Trapped

Have you ever struggled with something?
Something that seems like a catch 22?
Things have come a long way from 3 years ago.
3 years ago I was working full time at a job that I hated, with people that I did not want to be around.
My wonderful Hubby was willing to make the sacrifice with me (and probably tired of me coming home everyday crying) to cut back and allow me to work part time.
Throughout working part time I was happy and satisfied with the amount of time I got with Boogs because it was more than I had in the past.
Now, I am still working part time.
I work in the morning till 12:30.
It was a great job that I fell into and make good money for the work that I do.
There is one problem, now I HATE GOING TO WORK!
Everyday I walk out of the house, leaving my Hubby and my Boogs at home.
Hubby leaves for his work around 9:00 and Boogs goes to his grandparents (which is a total blessing because we couldn't afford daycare and I know he is being loved).
But it is killing me!
I am his Momma.
I should be the one with him in the morning when he is so eager to learn and play.
I should be taking him on play dates with his/ our friends.

However,
If I quit my job today so that I could do those things,
We probably would not be able to pay the bills, let alone afford for me and Boogs to go and do anything outside of the house.
The desire that God has laid on my heart since before Boogs was even born was to be a stay at home mom.
Boogs was a surprise about 4 years early. (No complaining he his here though)
Hubby and myself were not financially set up for me to stay at home.
Now we are working towards Hubby becoming a Pastor and as some may know, that doesn't pay so great.

I just recently realized what all of this negativity comes from.
JEALOUSY!!!!
Before, I was jealous that I couldn't work part time like other Mommy's I knew.
Now, I'm jealous of other Mommy's that stay home all day.
I really try to appreciate what I have but sometimes I forget.
I forget what things used to be like and how far they have come.
I need to keep things in perspective and no matter what,
Enjoy the time that I DO have with Boogs!

Thanks for letting me talk things through with you guys, You have no idea how much it helps.

Inspire

So, I'm sure you guessed it.

Yep. Still BROKE!!!

We have a friend that is going to look at the computer but it takes time and we just don't have any extra time these days. And guess what, NOW MY CAMERA IS BROKE.

Both items aren't old.

It is so frustrating.

Again, I need to take it back to the store but that takes time too.

Well, that was enough of my little rant about that. On to more fun things.
Since I can't post anything I have done, why don't I post about what others have done and make me want to do.

{Sisterhood of Secrets}

I just discovered this blog yesterday and I just can't stop reading it. It makes me want to cry and to help everyone at the same time. Feel free to contact the blog editor to post your own secret, or give some useful advice to others. Hugs for all these people.

{Stenciled Window Treatment @ A little of this, A little of that}

How awesome is this! I have a window treatment in mind for my master bedroom but this is a great alternative, and cheaper!

{Vintage Suitcase Table @ Shabby, Chic, & Charming}

There is no where in my house that something so Shabby Chic would fit, however, I have been looking for a desk for Boogs and so I am thinking of adding legs and making a desk out of it!

{Dinning Room Banquette @ Rushartist}

I NEED something like this in my house. I can't find a table that will fit in our little condo and not stick out like 2 feet. Oh my! This just reminds me that I have never shown you guys our home. I guess I need to put that on my to-do list for when I have a camera and computer.

{Threaded Necklace @ Tatertots & Jello}

This was inspired by J-Crew and if you have read my blog before you know that I love J-crew but am not allowed to shop there, lack of mulah! This is a great option. Totally do able. Now, its just about finding the time.

Well, I think that is enough for now. I already have a list a mile long of things I want to do. Maybe I will get time this summer to catch up. Oh well!

Have a great day!

P.S. I did make the lace outlined picture frame seen here, except I framed a wedding invitation. Turned out so adorable. I have a small project that I am going to try and post about tomorrow from my phone. Maybe that will work.

**Cross your fingers**

Still Broke

Oh computer how I HATE Love Thee,
Let me count the ways.

Yep, you guessed it.
Still Broke.
It is about 1 more day away from being thrown out the window.
I can't edit pictures.
I can't research new blogs.
I guess you measure the value of something based on your need for it.

I hope to be back soon.
Be checking back because I am going to be having a secret guest to join us.

Very Exciting!